Several years ago...
while going through a very tough time in our lives and in Jonathan's life, I wrote this poem.
I share it today for several friends of mine who are struggling right now.
God it is so hard just watching...
Watching him walk away from You.
Knowing You see all
You are watching also.
I know You see the end that I cannot see
So... there is no worry in Your watching.
I keep hoping in my watching
to see him return.
No more time wasted.
No more days lost.
No more grieving for his hurt
that self-inflicted hurt.
Watching...for it to be over
for freedom again.
Life he was created to live.
Life testifying of You and Your glory.
Lord, I am watching
hurting (for him)
knowing...rejoicing will come.
And today we are rejoicing... we have our son back. Not literally - as he is currently in Kuwait/Iraq. But we have him back. And we rejoice to see how God is using him in so many ways. Even the hard times can be used to help others going through similar situations.
I share this to give hope - and to let you know that we understand from a parent's perspective. Jonathan is sharing with many from his perspective... and God is using it. With more people than he even knows...as I get reports from others who are reading his blogs and comments.
So, for my Jon....
We are so proud of you. Not only for the service that you are giving to us all as you defend our freedoms. But also, for your willingness to be transparent with your life.
The apostle Peter - had to be sifted as wheat - but Jesus said to him..."Simon, Simon, Satan has asked to sift you as wheat. But I have prayed for you, Simon, that your faith may not fail. And when you have turned back, strengthen your brothers." (Luke 22:31-32)
You too, have been sifted... how precious to know that our Savior prayed for you (He kept watching). And now, that you have turned back.... you are to strengthen your brothers! And that is what you are doing....Keep on keeping on my son!
(And..... as I have heard Beth Moore share in her Bible studies.... remember that you do not have to ALWAYS go on the field trip to learn a lesson.... Sometimes, just learn from the Book!)
Love to you my Jonathan...
Love to you my friends...
Knowing that our Savior is watching and praying!
Friday, November 2, 2007
Several years ago...